Three years ago I wrote about my motherhood journey and what it meant to me at that point in my fledgling adventure (read it here). I had been a mother for four years to two children. I reflected about how being a mom had transformed me into a different but better version of myself. My piece was divided into a then and now evaluation (pre and post babies). It’s funny to see how much of a difference three years makes when it comes to perspective. Not ha-ha funny, more like an almost humorous kind of elucidation.
I now realize more than ever what a rookie I was at that point. I mean I knew it at that time but looking back with experience really highlights it. Now that I have three kids and my eldest is seven years old, motherhood just keeps getting more and more exhilarating, frustrating, scary, and rewarding. To have these 3 people in my life that I would do anything for is such an intense state of being sometimes. They are my whole world. It’s this crazy amazing experience that is filled with dichotomies that you just can’t explain. As I stated in my article three years ago, motherhood will always be the best thing that has ever happened to me. Children really are your greatest teachers and not a day goes by that I don’t learn from them. Motherhood with all of its peaks and gullies has really fulfilled me in a way that I didn’t know I needed. I acknowledge that it came at the right time in my life when I was ready, willing, and able to be a mom.
What has being a mom taught me almost eight years on? At this juncture two major conversions stand out. The first is that I understand and can see how motherhood reflects who I am…my triumphs and flaws, victories and insecurities. Many times, especially when it is challenging to be a mom it amplifies what parts of my character and soul I have to work on. My reactions and decisions in times of difficult moments teach me so much about myself. This is when I can really see how much fine-tuning and growth I need in certain areas. Sometimes that looking glass can be confronting because it’s always raw and truthful but also essential to recognize and accept so that I can continue to mature as both a mother and a person.
Through mommyhood I also discovered my passion for healthy living. My goal is to live life in the healthiest way I can to take care of myself but also to still enjoy. Wellbeing for my family and myself is my top priority because that’s what it’s all about. Over the years I’ve been moving towards a lifestyle that is more natural and sustainable, less impactful on our planet, generally more holistic. I had no idea that becoming a mother would lead me in this direction and that my life philosophies and desires would adjust so significantly. Slowly but surely this decade-long odyssey into health has been trucking along, metamorphosing and splintering into different sub paths that I am so excited to explore. But more than that this is how I am choosing to raise my kids and I couldn’t be happier about it. I want them to have respect and awe for the environment and the animals. I want them to be mindful of how their life affects the planet and those around them. I want them to strive to live their lives as holistically and naturally as they can. I want them to be healthy and happy. I have all these aspirations and more for my children.
My adventures in motherhood are the best of my life because of the love, laughter, and continual lessons that I am taught. It just keeps getting better and better!